I had the entire ride home from NY to think about the past, the reunion and my position in it all. There was a lot of talk about field hockey games, home coming, football and loads of parties in high school... none of which I took part in so had little to add to the conversations. It was nice to see the friendly familiar faces of my past and catching up with some of my family was enjoyable but it felt like I was just a phantom at times. I guess I've always been that square peg among round ones that fit in where ever they go. My interest and experiences are so different than most people; it's hard to find those "kindred spirits" that are spoken of in books and movies. I do not regret my trip to NY but wish that I had felt some kind of true connection while there instead of the superficial feeling that I left with.
Perhaps revisiting ones past only serves to give you a reference for just how far you've come and how much you have grown, changed and advanced. I'm ready to return to my job and am glad to be home with those that love me now.