Family is not blood alone but those that truly love and seek you out to be part of their life. I'm thrilled my siblings have found people that they call family.
I often wondered how families disconnect and stop speaking...it's because they all change and seek others more alike to themselves. It's just life.
I have no real close friends - you know that call me and I call them. I have extreme trust issues and it's hard to let anyone that close. Yes... it gets lonely at times but I can't see anyway to let the wall down. I've been hurt so much by people I thought were my friends that I just don't want to feel that anymore. I will in fact back away from people if I even feel I am letting them in just so they can't hurt me.
I have been so extremely fortunate to find Scott. He is my rock, my best friend and my partner for life. I love my son with all my heart and want the best for him always. I want him to find someone to share his life with and the joys and sorrows as they come.
I am not looking for sympathy with this post. I don't need to talk about this... I just needed to let it out of me in some way. That is all.