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Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Up since about 1:30 AM

NEGATIVE CONTENT - DON'T READ IF YOU WANT TO STAY UPBEAT> Just me letting off a bit of steam.

I just couldn't sleep for worrying what will happen next. I know that "worry" is a negative and only drags a person down but I'm feeling defeated and totally discouraged. I've started applying for a job in the hopes that it will help turn things around for us before we loose everything. I'm so much happier at home caring for my family but no one will give my husband a chance to show them how valuable he would be for their Company. Creditors are gnawing at our door with threats on a more frequent basis. And we feel like we have put our selves here so it is up to us to dig our way out on our own. But this is one of those times when I am feeling totally defeated. Staying upbeat and positive just aren't in my toolbox at this moment in time.


  1. Dear Becky ~ It is hard not to worry with the economy the way it is right now. Look into ways, if you haven't already, to work with your creditors.

    Love, hugs and prayers for you and your DH at this time.


  2. Becky, I am going through something similar and haven't blogged because I can't get my mind off it and onto crafting. I thought of posting something just like you did -- maybe it would give me some relief to vent? I pray that someone would give your husband a job so you could stay at home and not have to worry about these things. The stress is so bad for our health but how can you tell someone not to worry? I'll be praying.

  3. Thank you both. We are trying to stay positive and upbeat but it's really hard when things just never seem to improve. Scott was laid off from his job May 2009, and then I left my job because of health reasons in Nov. 2009. So we went from 2 incomes; insurance; travel and over spending to living on very little. I was lucky in that I had spent the first 18 years of our marriage as a full-time mom and homemaker - so I know that living on one income can be done but the debt we incurred while both of us were working is draining our savings. We don't want to touch our retirement accounts - we would like to retire one day for REAL - but unless something major happens and SOON - it's all just so uncertain. I wish our house was in a state to sell but we had started remodeling not long before Scott was laid off and now it's just not in "show condition" and with the housing market just now showing a little sign of improvement it would be awhile before someone would buy it anyway. We aren't as bad off as some but it's still tight living and with no health coverage we can't afford to go to the Dr and are hopping and praying nothing major happens health-wise. Scott is working through a temp service but that could end with no warning and then - who knows. I wish we had never moved from our first home - it would have been totally paid for years ago. Live and learn. All I can think is young people should learn to live with less and have enough saved to retire at 50 as after 50 no one will hire you. People are too concerned with outward appearance not willing to look passed that to the knowledge and talent held within - drives me crazy.


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